This Season of USA is Lit!

These writers on this season of the USA are doing a bang up job keeping us on the edge of our seats! Let’s just hope they’re not like the writers for LOST! Buckle up for some existential rambling DREAD below! (Don’t worry, it’s not political.)

As an aside – I randomly decided to check out my old blog today that I’ve sadly neglected since probably 2016 (HOW IS THAT almost 10 years ago??) and apparently people still VISIT this place? How? Why? Who? Anyway, I’m kind of pleased in a way. Welcome all!

Was this S on your bingo card?

Firstly, does anyone really believe that we’re living in some kind of “real world” anymore? Personally I’m on board with the idea that this is some kind of simulated reality – because could real life really be this bonkers? THIS S is SCRIPTED and you know it! They are keeping the drama high on purpose. This is the ultimate reality show for someone…aliens, gods, outsiders? Someone is enjoying themselves immensely as they watch us grapple with the fucked up reality they created. What sickos!

I mean be honest, was any of the last few years or really any of human history on your bingo card? It’s just one hit after another of weird crazy batshit insane events. It feels like a reality designed to make a person go crazy. I have honestly thought…am I already in hell? Cause I feel like I’m purposefully being manipulated – we all are. They are testing my limits and the limits of all humankind right before our eyes – we are the lab rats!

At what point do we stand up and say NO MORE!! I wish. Just kidding, we can’t opt out, that’s not an option!

It seems like most people don’t even try to think about stuff like this. They avoid it on purpose so their minds don’t explode. But I think about it a lot. Why are we here? What is this place? Ultimately – I am deeply terrified and uneasy because there is so much about it that I just don’t know and probably never will know until I leave this place – and sadly we have to do that shit alone (leaving this place), all by ourselves. We can’t take anyone else with us on the journey – no emotional support pets, no friends, no loved ones – not even a Xanax. That’s probably why most people just don’t think about it. It’s too alarming, too uncomfortable. But if you really start to look around you…something seems off with this place. Why is it so screwed up?

I used to think that it would be nice to be religious because there’s a sort of peace in just accepting what you’re told and believing that someone else is in charge of whatever is happening here and that ultimately – it’ll be alright. Will it though – has anything ever been alright throughout human history? That’s beside the point – the real question is…even if there is a God up in heaven, what is the context for his existence? Is he or she a flawed being much like us? Does he have an environment or a universe? Are there others like him or her or it? It honestly just makes you feel like it’s turtles all the way down. Where does it end? Who is his God? Is there a whole bureaucracy and levels of Gods? Is our God just some lowly employee or a middle manager who has given up on anything except making wildly entertaining content that drives the sims insane? Much of what we’re dealing with is highly entertaining, laughable or just plain crazy, the only problem is that we have to actually live through it – we’re trapped here. And that is terrifying.

Maybe God is just the middle-manager at his local insurance company? I feel like he’s not even trying anymore!

Things get dark – fast

What genius was like…let’s give them these fleshy, gross bodies! YEA!! While we’re at it, let’s also make them slowly degrade over time, as if they are slowly ROTTING AWAY!! Then eventually they’ll rot so much, they’ll cease to exist at all and the best part is that they will have to witness their slow disintegration and feel stressed about it as it’s happening. They will watch themselves slowly die over a lifetime! Wonderful!

We’ll also make them have to eat each other to survive! When you see other living things, you’ll think of delicious food rather than letting other things live and let live. So weird and fucked up! We’ll also give them minds they can’t control. When they want to be one way, their mind will be another way, a bad way. In fact their minds will never let them rest. When they say, I don’t want to get anxious, we’ll have them immediately get anxious! It’ll be genius! Then we’ll sell them therapy aimed at trying to fix their minds and thinking patterns and it’ll never work. It’ll be like the ultimate busy-work! Stunning!

Plus we’ll also put them down there with all kinds of ANIMALS! And I don’t mean wildlife. We’ll create truly misguided, mentally and emotionally inept people that will visit atrocities on their fellow humans. They’ll be terrified of the very people they live next to. The mental anguish will be an achievement for all to see!

It’s not like we can deny it. I don’t think we’re in a position to say, no, all that bad shit happened in the past, we’re civilized now. I think we all know that we could end up back in any of the most terrible times in human history at any time. Isn’t it a joy to know that you share the earth with psychos? We’re living down here with unpredictable sadistic animals. And I’m not even talking about politically right now cause I think about this stuff all the time. The amount of human suffering throughout history is ASTRONOMICAL and we’re supposed to feel okay about that and feel like this is ultimately a good place?

It really seems like we’ve upped the ante on what human suffering can be. We’ve perfected it. There are tons of us now populating the earth and we have a lot of really terrible weapons (earth destroying stuff) and we have tons of new technology with few guardrails on whether it can be used for nefarious purposes. We’re at a pinnacle of human achievement and on the precipice of enormous potential suffering. Not only potential physical suffering, but massive massive mental and emotional suffering. YEA!! But rest easy, it’ll all be okay!

Who is this Coder of worlds?

I feel like a lot of people who are atheists might be more interested in the idea of God if we just told them it was a master coder who created this simulation we’re all living in – we are the sims. If you think about it, a lot of the stuff from the Bible makes sense in this context. Oh you mean the coder created the heavens and the earth (with code)? Oh he took a little bit of the code from men and made women? Interesting! Maybe that was just our way of understanding coding before we even knew it was a thing. Still it raises a lot of questions…if this is a simulated reality how does it work? Is it preplanned? Are outsiders manipulating it or did they set it up and leave it to run on its own and just wanted to see what might happen and all this crazy stuff just happened. Are there any guardrails? Like is it possible for us to end civilization as we know it with atomic bombs or are we allowed to have them, but we can’t use them.

Even our old friend Darwin fits into the idea of a Coder in charge. Ever time the coder made a tiny tweak to some organism cause he thought…this could be a little better, that was Darwin’s natural selection. To us, it seems really slow, but maybe things move a lot faster for the coder. As quickly as the coder could introduce tiny changes, then those changes made a difference in the organism.

I’m sure there are flaws in my discourse. But there are a lot of possibilities. I find the coder idea kind of sad in a way. Who is this lonely coder? Clearly they are not a perfect being. How could a perfect being make something like this? Although if you think about it…evil and good are the two sides of the coin, the 1 and the zero. Maybe it’s necessary for this whole thing to work? Otherwise it crumbles.

I love theories of existence – so interesting! I saw someone on Reddit who said that we must create our own personal universe based on our approach to it. If we’re negative, it’s a bad place, if we’re positive, we create a good place. I honestly hate this idea. So yeah – ummm…I’m sorry that I made this place so bad with my truly negative thoughts and feelings. Sorry humanity! You’re just along for the ride.

From simulation theory, you can also see how someone might begin to think that there are non-player characters in our reality, much like there are in our video games. I’m not sure I buy this, but honestly if this place was just created as a way to torture me, it would totally make sense. (Look at all my negative ENERGY ruining things!! Sorry!). Maybe they’re just testing things on me or they’ve been testing different things throughout history. At this point in our history, it’s mainly mental manipulation based on the internet…what happens if we show them terrible stuff online but they don’t actually experience it physically in their everyday lives. Will they still go insane and be afraid? Yes, yes they will! Success!

Now the question remains, how to wrap up this insanity in a neat little package? Put a bow on it for the people. First I’m sorry if I’ve frightened you more than you already were. Like instead of just focusing on the insanity before your eyes that is actually happening all over the world, I’m asking you to also look around you and wonder why the hell we’re here and what it all means. Sorry – not sorry. Join my suffering. JK!!

Good news is, you can just go back to focusing in a very small way on your weekly to-do list. Maybe that’s why we need work (eww…can’t believe I said that!) because its main purpose is to keep our minds occupied with mundane tasks that seem normal for a little while, no matter how small, boring or ultimately insignificant the task, because otherwise we’d simply go insane. That’s probably also why we need sleep. We gotta wake up fresh for the latest insults to our intelligence and all the fun conspiracy theories. The best part is that they’ve been working humanity up to this point – slowly increasing technology…and then suddenly increasing it very quickly. Let’s see what happens! FULL SPEED AHEAD! NOTHING CAN GO WRONG!

I’m not sure what would surprise me anymore – I keep waiting for things to truly implode. Objects could start floating, we could be living alongside lizard pod people, aliens could land, we could suddenly get two suns and three moons and I’d be like…yeah called it. I’m so jaded.